Hello everyone,
Sorry for the extremely long update. Times have been a bit rough, and other times have been really great. So...where to begin...where to begin. Hmm...
I guess I'll start with my life. About one month ago I have found someone whom I love to death. <3 I'm very happy to be with them, and we do very well togethre, but when apart we do very bad. HAHAHA! Anyways college has been great. I only have 2 classes, but 7 credits which is a good start for me being late in the running for classes. I'm taking CIE 25; Personal Computer Confiuration and Repair; and CS 21; Game Development. CIE 25 is really fun! Taking PCs apart, messing with the motherboard and components, running through all of the BIOS and CMOS configuration. Good times. XD As for CS 21 things are going to be a bit hectic. I am in charge of about 50% of the things needed for my group's game. Mostly artwork and other misc. things. Anyways I'll post a link to the game once it's all complete. As for life at the apartment, things are going well. My roomies have started playing WoW and I couldn't resist but to start up my old account. Oh well XD In other news I'm hurting for money. x_x This ties into the gaining portion which I will get into in a minute. I'm on a strict "save money" policy because I have to pay rent and buy food and other things because I don't have work. I'll probably ask my roomie to see if his dad, whom he is also working for, needs another helping hand. Hopefully that goes through, or the job that I interviewed for calls saying I can show up for work. bleh x.x
Gaining related things are looking dim. I've tumbled downhill and can't get up. I've dropped all the way to 150 x.x THAT'S OVER 20LBS SINCE MOVING OUT, and with the way I am financially I can't afford to stuff myself and get going up the hill right now. It's very upsetting. I still want to reach 190, but I just can't do it without help. If I get this job I can probably start slowly...very slowly...working my way up, but it's so hard right now. I'm shriveling away. ALSO if I do work with my roomie, it's digging holes. In other words burning calories and losing even more weight. NO ME GUSTA!!!
Anyways, that's all I can write about right now since my other roomie is due back any minute. Eat up, for me, everyone.
Thanks for reading.
Friday, October 30, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
AUG 23, 2009
Ok well I have recently taken notice to someone in my life. However, what makes it so difficult is that this person is one of my roommates. IDK how they feel or if they even like me, and I can't be blunt about it and ask. Hopefully things will work out, and I can find out if they like me or not.
On the gaining scene, I've put on a little bit of weight but the scales still read 170/171. I talked to my main encourager and he might be coming to on a ski visit and we'll hang out together. And with the buffet near by me, we will see how stuffed I can get, and this will happen hopefully 1-2 times per day for about 5 days. That's 10 stuffing! O.O Hello 5lbs? Would be nice :D However, I am thinking that the stuffings should be so much that each time we go back for one I can eat more and more each time. :D A great time indeed.
Thanks for reading
-Justin
On the gaining scene, I've put on a little bit of weight but the scales still read 170/171. I talked to my main encourager and he might be coming to on a ski visit and we'll hang out together. And with the buffet near by me, we will see how stuffed I can get, and this will happen hopefully 1-2 times per day for about 5 days. That's 10 stuffing! O.O Hello 5lbs? Would be nice :D However, I am thinking that the stuffings should be so much that each time we go back for one I can eat more and more each time. :D A great time indeed.
Thanks for reading
-Justin
Thursday, August 13, 2009
AUG 13.
Hey there. It's been quite a while since I've posted anything, so I'm here to bring you all an update. So first off personal things.
PERSONAL
Well just a few days ago, one of my friends got harmed, and I'm going to skip on the details for privacy issues but I had a hand in it by suggesting to him the idea that got him hurt. I talked to him about it and he doesn't blame me at all. In fact he's using what happened to help himself prevent anything similar in the future. Now even though he said I'm not at fault, I still feel responsible. I've talked to a few of my other friends and they say I'm being to hard on myself.
After all this I spent a night reflecting on how I've influenced others that I tried to cheer up when they were feeling down. And now that I look back on it, all my attempts have failed. I've either a) Worsened how they feel, or b) Pissed them off enough to make them stop talking to me. With those in mind I've been rather down lately about the entire thing, and I've thought about just leaving them in order to make the pain go away. One of my friends that I talk to every night is really concerned that this could blow up into a depression, unless I figure out a way to pull myself out of this. And with the way things look, it might just happen. -.-
I've just recently come across a song that really speaks to me. It's called "That's what you get - Paramore." The song talkes about how when we follow our heart is hurts others and ourselves. There is a line in there that makes me think. "That's what you get when you let your heart win." It hits he hard because I followed my heart when I try to help those I care about, and it just runs me to disaster.
I wanna give out a special thanks to those who I talk to on MSN, YIM, AIM, and all those for caring about me. It means a lot to me; it really does.
GAINING:
Well, not much going on gainer like. Just hanging out, trying to survive on the minimal amount of food we have in the apartment. Hopefully things will pick up soon. I did find a buffet locally though.
Thanks for reading
-Justin
PERSONAL
Well just a few days ago, one of my friends got harmed, and I'm going to skip on the details for privacy issues but I had a hand in it by suggesting to him the idea that got him hurt. I talked to him about it and he doesn't blame me at all. In fact he's using what happened to help himself prevent anything similar in the future. Now even though he said I'm not at fault, I still feel responsible. I've talked to a few of my other friends and they say I'm being to hard on myself.
After all this I spent a night reflecting on how I've influenced others that I tried to cheer up when they were feeling down. And now that I look back on it, all my attempts have failed. I've either a) Worsened how they feel, or b) Pissed them off enough to make them stop talking to me. With those in mind I've been rather down lately about the entire thing, and I've thought about just leaving them in order to make the pain go away. One of my friends that I talk to every night is really concerned that this could blow up into a depression, unless I figure out a way to pull myself out of this. And with the way things look, it might just happen. -.-
I've just recently come across a song that really speaks to me. It's called "That's what you get - Paramore." The song talkes about how when we follow our heart is hurts others and ourselves. There is a line in there that makes me think. "That's what you get when you let your heart win." It hits he hard because I followed my heart when I try to help those I care about, and it just runs me to disaster.
I wanna give out a special thanks to those who I talk to on MSN, YIM, AIM, and all those for caring about me. It means a lot to me; it really does.
GAINING:
Well, not much going on gainer like. Just hanging out, trying to survive on the minimal amount of food we have in the apartment. Hopefully things will pick up soon. I did find a buffet locally though.
Thanks for reading
-Justin
Monday, July 20, 2009
July 20, 2009
Well after restating my new goal as 190, my donar from when I was going for 180 was eager and to my surprise very happy to make quite a contribution. And so I give him a great thanks. Thanks a lot man. It's great to have you helping out :D
Well as of the 35th of July, this SAT, I will be moving out with my friends to live down at an appartment right next to the college I will be attending in the fall. YAY! ^o^ My mom is of course afraid to let me go because she is like the worry version of Marie from Everybody Loves Raymond. GOD -o- *sigh* But with the move it should make my gain easier as a McDonalds is right down the street :D. I know it doesn't help my gaining but I plan on purchasing some rollerblades for communting myself to save on gas.
On another note, one of my favorite YIM buddies has started a blog of his own. Check him out @:
http://thechubbyitalian.blogspot.com
He's a really nice guy so please treat him accordingly. Plus in a sense he's my gaining rival O.o XP
On my gaining scene, I've kinda lost my burger crave, but that should change with the move since our diets will most likely consist of Top Ramen, Pizza, and Burgers. HURRAY!!!!
On a more personal level, I am still playing tennis, but not as frequently as I kinda want to; and my game is slightly improving as I'm working on a flat serve now since playing tennis for about 2 months :P I also started a job selling HQ cutlarry. Anyone in the SAC area want to set up an appointment to see me and possibly buy something? The money I made would go towards more food :D
Anyways I'm always up to reading comment, and requests. Heck if I get enough people commenting I might just make another video for youtube ;) Well, I'm off to finish eating and then schedule some more appointments for the week. I'll update again in a week or two :D
Well as of the 35th of July, this SAT, I will be moving out with my friends to live down at an appartment right next to the college I will be attending in the fall. YAY! ^o^ My mom is of course afraid to let me go because she is like the worry version of Marie from Everybody Loves Raymond. GOD -o- *sigh* But with the move it should make my gain easier as a McDonalds is right down the street :D. I know it doesn't help my gaining but I plan on purchasing some rollerblades for communting myself to save on gas.
On another note, one of my favorite YIM buddies has started a blog of his own. Check him out @:
http://thechubbyitalian.blogspot.com
He's a really nice guy so please treat him accordingly. Plus in a sense he's my gaining rival O.o XP
On my gaining scene, I've kinda lost my burger crave, but that should change with the move since our diets will most likely consist of Top Ramen, Pizza, and Burgers. HURRAY!!!!
On a more personal level, I am still playing tennis, but not as frequently as I kinda want to; and my game is slightly improving as I'm working on a flat serve now since playing tennis for about 2 months :P I also started a job selling HQ cutlarry. Anyone in the SAC area want to set up an appointment to see me and possibly buy something? The money I made would go towards more food :D
Anyways I'm always up to reading comment, and requests. Heck if I get enough people commenting I might just make another video for youtube ;) Well, I'm off to finish eating and then schedule some more appointments for the week. I'll update again in a week or two :D
Sunday, July 12, 2009
New Goal
Well on my life recently, I got a job with a pretty killer pay, but it's comission based for the base pay, but if I sell the product I get an incentive pay. Hopefully that can help me out a bit with my money problems like for when I move out on the 25th. I am also going to be attending the college I want to for 2 years this fall. I'm pretty excited. I put in an application for a vet clinic as well, and hopefully it goes well and I will have a "clock-in clock0out" pay. Plus I get to work with animals.
On the gaining portion, I have recently been hit with a Burger craving, and because of it all my wallet is looking pretty empty right about now; and I still am craving them burgers. And when I get burgers I don';t get one or the meal, I get 3 burgers is all, and I've had them for lunch these past 3 days and I still want more. ALSO, some of you out there might be pretty excited, I think I am going to gain to 190. I am currently 172 because I had a pretty upsetting thing happen in my life, and when I'm sad I don't eat. So, hopefully I can turn that around. I also want to give a special thanks out to my friendly encouragers that I chat with on MSN and YIM. Thanks a lot, you guys are the best.
Anyways, just a brief recap; Craving burgers, and new goal of 190. Anyone want to help/encourage? :P
Thanks for reading
On the gaining portion, I have recently been hit with a Burger craving, and because of it all my wallet is looking pretty empty right about now; and I still am craving them burgers. And when I get burgers I don';t get one or the meal, I get 3 burgers is all, and I've had them for lunch these past 3 days and I still want more. ALSO, some of you out there might be pretty excited, I think I am going to gain to 190. I am currently 172 because I had a pretty upsetting thing happen in my life, and when I'm sad I don't eat. So, hopefully I can turn that around. I also want to give a special thanks out to my friendly encouragers that I chat with on MSN and YIM. Thanks a lot, you guys are the best.
Anyways, just a brief recap; Craving burgers, and new goal of 190. Anyone want to help/encourage? :P
Thanks for reading
Saturday, June 20, 2009
About poll and more
23 people have said "I care" on the poll. While I'm not saying anyone is lying, I do find it hard to believe that everyone cares. I know for a fact that there are people out there that just want to "whack off" to gainers. I also know there are those out there that are interested in the person themselves. So, I just want to throw it out there that I am willing to talk to anyone, but believe me when I say that I will block anyone who doesn't care about me or anyone but their own Turn On.
On another note, I have gone back down to 170 and have been around there for quite a while. I am planning a trip to go visit 2 friends of mine, both of which I love very much. Both of them are my "brothers." Both are my younger bros and one of them is my love ^-^. I would like it if everyone would comment on this post to show that you care. Even if you have nothing to say just say Hi or something just so I know that you really do CARE.
Until next time
On another note, I have gone back down to 170 and have been around there for quite a while. I am planning a trip to go visit 2 friends of mine, both of which I love very much. Both of them are my "brothers." Both are my younger bros and one of them is my love ^-^. I would like it if everyone would comment on this post to show that you care. Even if you have nothing to say just say Hi or something just so I know that you really do CARE.
Until next time
Thursday, May 28, 2009
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