Hello everyone that is reading. For this post I'd appreciate it if you could all show some sort of support. I'm going through a rough time in both gaining and life, relationship-wise.
To start off, I have been very very worried because my BF called me and wants to talk to me face-to-face tomorrow. His tone was sad and upset sounding, and I fear the worst may be coming. My gut tells me that tomorrow may be the end of our relationship. ='( If it is I can tell you all that I'm going to be very very upset, almost depressed if you would. I really love him and we had a talk similar a few weeks ago where we said that we would take small steps to recovering our relationship. He claimed that we had "lost our spark," and it's because we don't ever go into deep conversations. I can not hold conversations because I run out of things to say and talk about. If I am able to hold a conversation, I don't want to rant because then I feel as if I'm boring him. So tomorrow I'll see what happens. I just hope that what I am fearing is just my imagination getting the better of me. I really do x.x I may be a strong Aries, but I could hardly say I am a ram, I'm more of a sheep.
As for gaining, I can't seem to get into the mindset for it. Because of what is going on in my life, revolving around my worries for tomorrow and my mom's disapproval of me having a BF, I just can't seem to want to gain. And if things transpire as my mind sees it; I lose my BF; who knows what will happen to gaining...and me psychologically and emotionally. (However, I won't go off the deep end for thing like suicide and all that. I'll probably just be in a deep depression.) So if I do drop of the gaining radar, mainly my blog here and IMs (or if I don't reply on my IMs) then you probably know why.
Well, hopefully things go well, and I'm worrying for nothing.
Thanks for reading.
